She stared at the ceiling, nibbling on her lip, she still felt the blood on her hands and rubbed the back of her hand with the palm of her other hand. "Hey...are you awake?" She whispered, not looking over. She barely fit into the small bed and the cotton blanket provided no warmth. The room gave off no other furniture except a small chest at the end of each bed. They were both hard metal with thin mattresses. They were deep underground and the lack of water made her skin itch.
She blinked, "sorry," she muttered, "you can go back to sleep...it's okay." Lucky girl. Elle wasn't able to get a wink. "At least it wasn't my nightmares." She probably shouldn't have mentioned it but her dreams, that made her wake up screaming, had been getting worse the past few nights.
"It's alright. I can't get much sleep now anyway, since this bed isn't the most comfortable." She then sat up. "Nightmares? If you don't mind me asking, do you remember anything from those nightmares?"
"Sometimes severe. The latest nightmare I had was a flashback to when I was shot, but one of the cult members succeeded in killing me. But that's nothing compared to the nightmares I get about..that day."
"To answer your questions from now and from before the ball, the reason why I wear that Lunar necklace all the time in the Academy isn't because I'm patriotic of being a Lunar. It's because it was the last gift I received from my parents, before they were killed." She finally opened up. "It's one of the only things that I have to remind me of them. I didn't really tell people about this, until I ended up making friends for once and getting a boyfriend."
"According to my brother, I was. I loved them." She looked at the blanket that was scarcely covering her. "Luckily for me, I don't remember everything about the day when they were killed. But unfortunately for my brother, he remembers all of it."
"I guess we have something in common then." Erraline sighed in sadness. "I try to be sociable and friendly, but I tend to have severe trust issues sometimes. Living in Japan made me that way." She couldn't stop opening up.
She smiled, "seems we really do have stuff in common," she said. She took a moment of silence, gathering her thoughts. "My mother sold me off. For three bags of heroin. When I was three. We were living on the streets and...she, according to the guy who took me in, never really liked me. So it didn't really bother her to...just sell me off for the stuff she loves. I hear that she use to be a prostitute and thats how I was conceived. Don't even have a name for my father. One thing we don't have in common, I wasn't born out of love."
"I didn't find out until I was thirteen," she replied with a shrug, "I was loved by Jordyn, though, the guy who brought me in. He treated himself like he was my father. I grew up surrounded by soft toys and books."
"Erraline, Jordyn was the one who sold her the heroin, do you really think my life would a happy one with a drug lord as a father?" She asked, slightly laughing, "I don't see him anymore you know? He's in jail. Attempted murder." And it was out. She'd never said the words out loud before. Not to anyone, not even Tom.
"It has its advantages. Like I've said previously, you get to attend coronations and balls and all that jazz. I'm also financially secure for the rest of my life, thanks to my position. When I leave the Academy, I could live anywhere on Earth with my fortune. But it has disadvantages, especially for those who don't have traditional views or are hated by higher ups in other kingdoms like myself. One of those disadvantages is security. Just like many of the powerful on Earth, we're at risk of being assassinated." She took a break, to sigh. "The massacre that my parents were a casualty of, that was rumoured to be an assassination plot on behalf of higher-ups in the Solar Kingdom. That's what conspiracy theorists love to believe."
"Maybe something to do with animation. Or maybe security. I haven't really thought it out that far yet. I made those plans for myself when I thought I was going to be alone, but now I have a significant other who I have to incorporate into plans - unless he doesn't stay with me in the future, which I don't want to happen."
"Oh that will last until I die, or unless I do something that revokes my duchess status. But I'm not stupid, so I won't do that. While I will be loyal to the Lunar Kingdom, because my mother and father had been loyal and if I wasn't loyal, I'd be disrespecting their legacy, I don't see myself spending my entire life in Elementrium."
"Not intending to be rude, but you're very inquisitive when it comes to royalty. I remember the questions that you've asked me, so I was wondering whether you'd want to become royalty. If it reassures you, it'd be possible for you to become a Princess. That's if you married Julian."
"It's a...it's a bit early to be talking about marriage, don't you think?" She asked, laughing slightly at the absurdity of the situation. They might die down there and they were talking about marriage.